All I want to say is : Michael, why did u die?

Liv

以下只是我个人的痴人梦语，请勿转。

I still can not believe he's gone.
I've been tough all these days. well pretty much, not all the time, but still pretty much.
Sometimes tears would come down, but silently.
'Cuz I didn't want to make a fuss.

But as I read the comment of a fan today on youtube, I crashed.
He wrote only one simple sentence, "Why did you die?"

All of the feelings came up and my tears bursted out loud, really loud. I couldn't hold it anymore.
I just couldn't.
Yes, Michael, why did you die?

For all the wishes I read, all those condolenses, all those nice things, that you will rest in peace, that you are in a better place now, I still want you to stay.
I don't want you to be in that better place, heaven or hell, I want you to be with us.
I want you to live.
You said you wanted to live forever!
Have you forgotten that?

People say you must be better off now, that it is better for you to leave, to leave this dirty world behind, to leave all the burden behind.
But I don't want you to leave, 'cuz we are still here!

Now you are gone and the days without you start to haunt me.

It is not that you are not present that hurts me. It is the emptiness, the hollowness since you left, it is the very idea that all this beautiful creation you've made will not be going on anymore, that you are not there to do this anymore, haut me.

For all the reasons in the world I still want you to live.

Because we are still here.

咪姆

水上飞

明天就葬礼了

橙子色的猫

嗯，我也想过，他不会孤独，孤单的是我们，因为我们还在这个世界里挣扎